I hope you brought your umbrella

February 2011

Archive For February 2011

Au travaille

My job title at work is a “clinical counselor,” though usually there isn’t much counseling. For the majority of patients, I merely go through pricing, manage objections, book a surgery date, and send them on their way after going through the required information. That’s all that the majority of patients actually want me to do, […]

Filed under: Uncategorized by Ashley - 26 February 2011, No Comments

Today

Not feeling so great emotionally. I just feel drained, sad, and am completely lacking any sort of sparkle or confidence. I don’t know what I need, and I don’t know what to do to feel better, though I wish I did. I’m scared for Australia. It’s overwhelming that the trip is coming up so quick […]

Filed under: Uncategorized by Ashley - 25 February 2011, 1 Comment

Mementos

Last night, I undertook the task of going through box after box of stuff that I have compiled over the years. I had to do a massive purging of stuff because of space constraints at home, what with my mom’s fiancée moving in as well as the impending development of the basement in my house, […]

Filed under: Uncategorized by Ashley - 24 February 2011, 2 Comments

My name

I know it’s strange (well, I am the one that’s strange), but I find it so unnatural when people call me Ashley. Yes, it’s my name, and depending on the person and the situation, it works, but if it’s a friend or someone I’m close to, they usually just call me Ash. It’s just so […]

Filed under: Uncategorized by Ashley - 24 February 2011, 2 Comments

I’m pretty sure

That with you, I cannot possibly win. I don’t quite know how to handle the constant second-guessing. Ugh.

Filed under: Uncategorized by Ashley - 23 February 2011, No Comments

Song of the night

Hang me up to dry – Cold War Kids Careless in our summer clothes Splashing around in the muck and the mire Careless in our summer clothes Splashing around in the muck and the mire Fell asleep with stains Cake deep in the knees, what a pain Now hang me up to dry You wrung […]

Filed under: Uncategorized by Ashley - 20 February 2011, No Comments

Documentaries

When Carbis and I watch movies, the trend seems to be that they’re documentaries, which I am enjoying. The first one we watched was one he was really excited about, “Waiting on ‘Superman’”, which was about the failing school system in the US. It was incredibly interesting, and very eye-opening. It shocked me to see […]

Filed under: Uncategorized by Ashley - 20 February 2011, 4 Comments

And tonight,

I felt the great divide. A rift that may put a chasm between you and I for good. If that’s what you want, I guess that’s your choice. Understood. And left with an aching heart.

Filed under: Uncategorized by Ashley - 18 February 2011, 3 Comments

Happy Valentine’s Day :)

Love is in the air around here! I know a lot of people hate today for various reasons, some valid, some due to bitterness. I concur that it is indeed contrived, cliched and puts way too much pressure on men (and couples, actually), but it is one of my favourite times of the year because […]

Filed under: Uncategorized by Ashley - 14 February 2011, No Comments

What if

None of this is real? Or only certain parts are real? I want to be wanted for me, and nothing else. We never talk. What the hell.

Filed under: Uncategorized by Ashley - 12 February 2011, 2 Comments